i noe itz hard fer you to accept it.
and itz really hard fer me to accept it too.
receiving a message from you to think otherwise was on de mind.
but it was de other way round.
received a message saying about de lost of your mom really aches me.
not telling me dat she got warded really make me hate you much.
u noe i love her like how i love my mother.
and i noe you werent being urself in dat week.
and i fergive you dat.
but i just cant fergive myself fer not seeing her fer de last.
and not asking her fer fergiveness if i ever did in de past.
i jz fergive self yet.
and i miss her like i miss my mother.
and i noe you miss her more.
being de pillar of de family,
you have many commitments.
take care of lil sis and dad alright.
and insyallah i'll come over and see de three of you.
cried yesterday de whole day.
even after i received de message till i reached home and before i went to bed and after i woke up from sleep.
i never knew it.
maybe i regretted of not visiting her earlier.
and i miss her so.
missing her company.
missing her food.
missing her laughters.
really aches me.
i miss her so.
hari raya this year wont be de same wifout her by de side.
wifout her inviting us wif her cooking.
her nice delicious yummylicious cooking.
oh.
i miss her so.
i noe she isnt my own mother.
but noeing her fer 4 years really make me noe her.
now i noe how much a person misses someone precious.
and ya..
i noe you were shocked to see me doing dat yesterday.
before she was brought out.
coz i regard her as my own mother.
love her like my own mother.
and i seriously miss her so.
and you do take care of urself ya.
fasting month is de start of tomorrow.
take care of lil sis and dad alright.
ask her to study hard and make de family proud.
and ask ur dad to take care of himself too.
i'll come over after work someday okay.
you noe i love all of you like how i used to do.
you noe i love all of you like my own family and siblings.
=))
