memories are to be kept to self alone..: May 2008

Friday, May 30, 2008

singles outing. 12:32 PM

went out to meet nanie and za at amk.

supposedly have to meet up at 12 in raffles.

but nah..

i jz had something to do.

and i was crying mrepekly lor..

den after dat,

agreed to meet dem at 1.30pm.

and guess what?

i was still at home la.

nanie called up.

and i was crying still.

imagine ds..

u cried.

den u stop.

tired olreadi mah.

den after dat u talked to ur fren,

and he asked u everything on what happened.

and dere you are continue crying again..

den after cooled down,

ur ghurlfriend called u up..

den cried again..

hahahah!!

we met.

and settle her problems.

ahhaah!!

giler bayangan nyer pompan.

please la..

she cant stop talking and mumbling about him sia de whole dae.

lucky u ur ghurlfriends are fine..

and..

we planned fer having de singles ghurlfriends outing..

yes!!

all single olreadi mah..

and..

yes nanie..

i think i can accept her back after all ds while..

siti haslinda!!

ure soon gonna mit us up soon fer ghurls gathering..

make urself free.

but shud be after my KL holiday trip uh..

hahaah..

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

yan. 11:17 AM

went out to esplanade wif mat nor.
thanks deary fer being my listening ear.
and fer bullying aku kan fer de whole day.
im was fcuking pissed off wif dem.
and dere you are.
instead of consoling me.
ure like bullying me.
and were laughing at me sia!!
fer dat incident on dat friday night.
u noe i noe public seriously donnoe okay.
heheh!!
hahahah...

den after dat,
received a call from yan.
had to go hospital cz he had an accident.
i was like "errr.. okay.. den i'll accompany you den.."
mat nor and i were like waiting fer an hour.
even thou he told me dat he'll be reaching in 20 mins.
bnyak kau nyer 20 mins.
he was like in de shower wif soap in his eyes.
which made it to be 1 hour reaching time.
sorry mat nor fer making you accompanying me.

went alexandra upon reaching to peninsula.
his eyes was swollen.
"tu lah.. tgk pompan lagk time on de road.. kn kene langgar taxi.."
hehehhe..

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and now..
i was chatting wif ds lady.
she was okay lah.
den she was asking me..
"ure a fren of yan?"
and i asnwered "ya..."
and den ds stoopid question came out..
i asked her..
"are de both of you couples?"
fuck!
she told me shes attached to him recently..
dey're attached?
my deary fren is attached and never did tell us or even me?
i was like so fcuked up.
den..
i never even think of anything and straight away msged yan..
i guess it was jumping to conclusion.
i never did asked him anything.
and yet i was went to asked him without waiting fer his answers.
but den i remembered yan telling me about ds lady.
firstly,shes married.
secondly,she is yan's stalker.
and i thought of dat after i msged yan wif a long page of msges.
u noe i noe dat i never like ds kind of situation.
and somemore,a gd fren who lied to u?
okay wait!
did he lied?
or is she trying to make up a story here?

now i just need yan to ring me up to explain everything.
cz he's my listening ear,
and me his listening companion.
listening ear larh..

so yan..
ring me up alright.
i noe deres something or some explaination here.
and i noe ure going to tell me something from last time till now.
so i just need to noe everything now.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

28 things most ghurls wont noe. i donnoe. seriously. 4:36 PM

i guess dese are true?
dat i maself dont really noe anything about it seh.

Guys hate sluts even though
they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not 'popular' ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a HOE)

Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they trulycare about.

Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

Guys get jealous easily.

Guys are more emotional than they'll like people to think.
Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind..'
would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.

Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

Guys think WAY too much.
One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.

Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys.
Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.

When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,
'Please come and listen to me.'

If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him.
It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't.
It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

Don't be a snob.
Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
If you are going to reject a guy,just do it.
Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more.
Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

holidays 4:26 PM

im counting down fer my holidays to KL.
pweety please!!
i really need holidays.
seriously.
please.

jobs?
come back later after my holidays can?
please!!

i really really need to ease de mind.
and im going to leave everything and everyone behind..
hahah!!
padan muke.
aku suke.
dese are de names dat i wanna leave dem behind:
ilah
nanie
amalina
nor
azri
yan
dhil
hidir
hahahah!!
but firstly..
please la.
i need my holidays.
please come by fast.
please!!

thanks.seriously. 3:48 PM

chatted wif goody irritating bastard friend of mine yesterday night.
cz i was crying again!!
hes jz my listening ear..
after izhar which actually i donno where he hide himself.
deng!
2 dayz are up.
lost count ehk?

yes2..
i was crying again..
at my window..
with open window grill.
with cigarette.
yes i noe!!
i donnoe y ds thing happen.
i was totally pissed off and stress and dats y i smoke.
don judge me with anything.
cz i noe im not a regular smoker.
sorry cuzins..
and sorry ghurlfriends.
cz i cannot tahan olreadi yesterday.
totally stressed up.

nor was jz my listening ear.
i was reluctant to tell him everything.
i mean every of my problems.
but i just cant lah.
cz nor is just so close to me fer my hearing ear.
i was staring at those stars.
talking to nor,and looking at those.
i was wondering if he is looking at de same star which im looking at.
cz we were looking at those stars de night before at east coast.
it was seriously nice.
and i cried la.
i was hearing to "sendu di hatimu,rindu di jiwaku - sang by arrow".
and nor was laughing at me la kn.
* hiak-dush *

he was trying to cheer me up.
but i was crying very terok on de fone.
fer those who heard my cries b4,how was it?
hahaha..
k2..
i was waiting fer de msges.
but it was juz a waste.
i was thinking negatively.
serious.

cz he went over to meet his fren,whch was actually i guess it was his ex.
cz he told me before hes going over to her place to take back his helmet.
but im jumping to conclusion again?
i guess?
but ergh!
what was i thinking?
firstly i told him everything..
secondly im having ds feeling.
dey!
what happen to me?
dont anyhow seh wanie.
remember he is just a friend okay.
ds happened after he heard my cries.
you noe what i mean kn nor?

and he called me juz now.
informing me dat he cant msg me and have no free incoming cz of de low prepaid.
hey!!
u jz top it up dat monday.
de day u went out wif dat friend whom u lied to me.
bodoh per.
and deres no need fer u to talk like dat kn?!
double bodoh.
dengz.

and guess what?
double trouble fer me today.
or i'll make it as triple trouble.
but i'll asure u dat i'll update someday later okay?
got to rest lappy fer now.
den mit up za and nanie to amk hub.
amk lagk.
hope never ever bang into someone familiar.
i just have ds feeling of bang into someone.
please2..
babez.
lepak banquet?
hahaha!!

dat night. 3:23 PM

watching those stars at night..
hearing those waves really eased my mind..
i simply love dat moment.
thanks fer bringing me to dat place just to ease everything.
and i cried okay.

ive been stressed up.
only certain noes what happen.
it really makes me go tralalalaa..
cz im on a roller coaster ride..

those stars and waves are just my hearing aids..
where i gave away my pains and laughters at dat moment of time..
even thou azri was dere too..
i cried infront of him pon.
dengz!

from de time we came,
he talked about de ex ghurlfriend.
okay.
as a close friend,i ought to hear his cries,his laughters,his problems,etc...
but if itz a short time,it'll be okay and fine wif me..
ds was like..
de time we came,and de time we went back.
deng.

and i cried after everything was peacefully quiet.
which i realised he himself kept quiet too..
i was like wondering..
"what happen to him?"
"and what is going on wif me?"
those stars blinking wif de nice cold weather and waves are just my witness fer my cries on dat day.
i cried my problems out on de windbreaker.
and im telling you i simply love dat moment where im trying to washed away my problems.
i never been or happened to be in ds kind of situation where i sat by de sea.

thanks azri fer hearing me out.
thank you fer hearing my cries.
thank you fer hearing what i wanna sae.
thanks fer everything.
a friend you are.
a shoulder to cry on.
thanks.

Friday, May 23, 2008

dey'd won. 7:36 AM

i'd told you he'd win.
yes ah.
david cook won de american idol.
mom..
you see..
your son-in-law won it.
i told you.
okaylah.
noe what?
i cried okay seeing him won it.
seriously.
hehehhe..

and double yes okay!
manchester united won!!
woohoo!!
told you guys kan?
you lost de bet guys.
aku menang.
woohoo!
next time do listen to me okay guys.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

confusion.confusion.confusion. 2:02 AM

will you love someone who loves you but u never did appreciate it?
or?
will you love someone who had wrong doings while being in relationship?
or?
will you love someone whos love life was brat by his ex?

ghurlfriends.
i need you.

holidays i really really hope u come by fast.
cz i really really need you fer now.

jobs?
can come by later not?
after my holidays?
pweety please?

yes.
i noe.
i'll be having ds 2nd interview in de morning at de japanese bank ds friday.
will be going alone ds time round.
been pampered by going wif people around.

how i wish azri can go back early and accompany me go fer de 2nd interview again.
and how i wish yan is not working on dat day,and can accompany me go fer my 2nd interview.
hahaha..!!
how i wish i can get ds job.
itz under finance department la seh.
pening dok.
u noe how i hate maths.
i'll cry.
like what izhar told me la kan jz now after noon.
letz jz wait up fer next 2 days call okay brother.
heheh..
u noe i noe.
bloody sucker blood.

so ya..
now waiting fer soccer match to start.
everyone dozed off.
kate jek nk temankn aku.
habok pon tkder.
thanks to azri fer sleeping early fer tmrw work.
thanks to yan fer sleeping wifout sending my mcdonalds supper.
thanks to my dad fer sleeping snoringly.
thanks to my brother fer asking me "kau nk tgk bola? bola aper? bola sepak la.. deng! "

* i really need to be myself. i need to be back alone. but how am i suppose to say dat? "

Monday, May 19, 2008

david cook is loved. 9:41 PM

david cook is loved.
=)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

graduation day. 11:24 AM

it was fun! fun! fun!
met all ghurlfriends.
miss all de mak enons alright.
so mak enons!!
ive upload de pics here.
if u have more pics,do send it to my email addy alright.
so i can upload it fer u here..
take care lovez!
and do meet up often alright.my mak enons are missed by me.
=)

http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/52/graduation_day.