memories are to be kept to self alone..: March 2008

Sunday, March 30, 2008

ya.itz killing. 1:59 PM

body is shivering much.
from yesterday night.
and de head is seriously killing me.
seriously.

couldnt sleep de whole night.
about 4+am..
went to de kitchen to get some panadol and painkillers.
my head is spinning.
de migraine is from bad to worst.
i just cant figure out why people never understand.
dey just think itz a normal headache.

please la..
itz me who is de one who feels de worst of it.
but u just never understand.

a relative passed away cz she encountered de worst migraine.
and i just had de feeling dat im gonna live long wif ds migraine.

pray hard dat i can stay longer without no one noeing dat this migraine is killing me.

de werds which arent supposed 4 me. 1:48 PM

to live or not to live?

i seriously hating it much.
you noe..
i care and concern fer you people..
i took care of everyone..
and tell me something..
what do i get?

werds which are not supposed to be heard.
and you said dat?!
i never wanna be de cruel daughter or what ever.
but itz you who made me being like dis.

it you!
my own mother?
u regretted having me as a daughter rite?
fine.
i,myself,kept everything to self.
itz not only once.
many and few alot of times!!

i never wanna be rude to you!
and i never did rude to you!
but itz you!
you regretted huh..
fine.

i shall and will keep self quiet.
cz i,myself,regretted being here.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

trip to changi general hospital. 2:50 PM

just got back from accompanying chemong!
all de best chemong!
hopefully dey'll call you soooooon.

chey!
someone is working sooooon.
unlike me still..
rotting at home.
duh!

met nanie at about 7.45am in yiochukang.
wah!
biiiig maaaajor difference huh..
ehheheh...

as usual..
talk2 non-stop..
early2 morning olreadi talked2 about this and dat..
this wan and dat wan..
dat person and ds person..
this is what i called..
"morning gossip-ness"...
whahahha!!
hehehhe..

reached changi general hospital about 9.15am.
had our morning drinks..
as usual..
nanie..
wif her toilet break..

went up about 9.45am..
she went fer interview and me waiting outside..

at last!
about an hour later,
after sitting on my hot sit..
she came wif gooood news.
she passed de interview..
and now waiting fer deir final call..
prayed dat u get de job hor..

den..
headed to eastmall or eastpoint?
watever shopping centre it it...
seriously.
boring!
errkkkhh..!!

had our breakfast cum lunch at banquet..
talked2..
chatted2..
and off!
we went to de toilet..
instead of entering de cubicle..
we had some snaps2..
as usual mah...

den...
off we went boarding de train when we suddenly felt de urge of going to de toilet again..
i mean..
wif entering de cubicle..
alighted at raffles place okay!
juz fer de toilet..

phew!
heehhee....
and off we went home sweet home..

wondering..
will dere be gathering?
i wonder still..

de link to de pics in multiply....:
http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/48/trip_to_changi_general_hospital.

mom down wif foood poisoning. 1:43 AM

it hurts when seeing someone sick to de max!!

accompanied lil bro to see de doctor.
seriously.
slow to de max okay.
people in de clinic were coughing like mad.
lil bro was having fever.
and went fer mcdonald after dat fer he wanted to have lunch dere.

bought foooods..
and straight fer home.
ate.
and cooked macaroni fer people at home.
mum was sick.

den went out awhile to northpoint to grab some dinner..
hehhehe..
bought mom and rest carrot cake and chicken rice.
saw bibik wa at de fooood court.

and straight home to where my legs are leading to.
and..
de drama begins..

at around 1am..
mom was beginning to feel sick.
she went in and out of de toilet.
vomitting..
diarhoea..
it continued till maghrib de next day(260308).

accompanied her to see de doctor in de afternoon.
after dat..
headed to grandmother's place which was nearby.
cz she felt of vomitting again.

upon reaching..
wak yati was dere wif irdina too..
mom and i stayed dere till maghrib where de sickness came about from bad to worst.
den i also getting my headache after dat..
seriously.
de migraine hit me back.

seeing her in dat situation kill me.
seriously.
i cried.
wif no one noes about.
i just cant see her being sooooo seriously sick to de max..

after maghrib..
sent her to doctor nawaz..
doctor told dat she gt food poisoning..
haiz..
hurts me more..
haiya..

sent her back home.
but not back home..
to grandmother's home.
cz everyone will nt be at home in de morning.
am nt tooo sure if dad is working tmrw..
cz mom asked if he can take urgent leave.
she cannot even get out from de bed..

promised nanie to accompany her fer interview.
so..
be miting her in de morning..
oh gosh!
morning early-ness have not be waken up by me since graduated.
if only shes around wif us..

got to go!
later dat mak nenek pet pot pet pot #%$%^%&^%@#
if late.
hahahha!!

of coz mah.
shes de one who having de interview.
must give de best.
woohoo!!

all de best chemong!

izhar!!
u called.
and i noe ur little secret.
:)

Monday, March 24, 2008

result. 7:46 PM

oh no!!

results are coming up sooooon!!

2nd april is de date..

catch up soooon..

:)

silence is de best cure and medicine. 3:49 PM

i'll be S.I.L.E.N.C.E...
from now on..
or ferever...

itz de best cure of medicine fer myself..
rather den hurting self much..

im not here to be thinking only on self..
i do have de care and concern fer you people..
but itz you who misjudged self..

im not talking on anyone concern here...
im just.......
.....
.....
.....

haiz...
this is what i call..
"my misery life"...

somethings wrong? 3:11 PM

haiz..

was looking ferwerd fer pit..
i guess something's wrong somewhere2..
but im not too sure what really happen..
wondering what ehk?

my fault?
any other's fault?
we werent talking much or gathering much..
miscommunication?
haiz..
i donnoe..

Sunday, March 16, 2008

20th. 12:06 AM

woohoo!!
someone is turning 20th old tower sooon!
hehhehe...

counting on de days of family gathering to pasir ris.
and im hoping dat it wont rain cats and dogs..
please..

and dont let my tent fly away.
and dont let anyone's tent collapsed.
like we used to encounter.
sorry ehk..
not mine..
it was grandmother's tent..
whahahhahah!!

luckily got us..
de super-heros-heroins..
saving her tent fer like half an hour?
whahahha!!

and our high hopes of staying up late fer sunrise was turned down..
it became sun-not-seen.
it was seriously a cold and shivering nite actually.
but i tink we were perspiring fer 'jaga' grandmother's tent.

and den again.
it was nice.
playing in de rain together2..
whahahah!!

looking ferwerd fer de gathering alright.

and i heard my ex-class will be having a chalet?
cool...
gathering..
and de 28th april tingy ting rite..
im trying to persuade mummy k..
and maybe it can happen la..
so gt a small gathering on de 26th instead of 28th which will be on monday seh..
i'll try to persuade mummy again..
hope it will come true.
if not,i'll juz meet you cliques.

wondering whats on 28th?
someone here is turning a 20th small kiddo..
whahahaha...!!

and im wondering if dat someone or i shud some guy out dere..
who intend to ferget dat 28th date..
who actually went around finding my mate,sabrina, fer de class list to check out dat 28th.

whoa!
i'll be hating you if you ferget.
and im sure..
preeety sure..
you will make it a purpose one of fergeting it.
and im gonna hate u seh.

Friday, March 14, 2008

migraine. 2:05 PM

itz returning back.
seriously.
i ought to hear advises from people.
and this is what i got.

migraine.

yerp2.
itz killing me.
maybe problems or stress are complied together.
which turns this.

yerp2.
resting enuf is what i nid.
cooling down self from thinking problems shud be put aside.
you noe i noe dat i may be thinking fer others and not fer myself.
and this is what i got.

migraine.

bye.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

after exams. 12:24 PM

hahah!
after came back from school which was "after miting dem"..
went out,releasing stress from exams..
to woodlands..
went round..
and round..
and round..
and...
TAA-DAA!!

who i saw?
make a guess..
quick!

hah!
saw abg am..
together wif kak ayu..
and chubby irdina..
woohoo!!
cute banget kamu ya..

and again!
please make a quick guess again to whom i saw..
quick!

hah!
saw dat hate.ego.prasanhensem.prasan hot.guy..
and..
de friend..
and cuzin boyfriend..

guess cuzin shud noe huh..
ya2..
dat sanwan..
wif farhan..
together wif hakim..
at causeway point..
it was a luck dat dey never notice..
cz it really make me go...
errkkk...ewww..
when seeing dat mr prasan hot gitu..
please stop it.
kau pikir kau hensem?
kau pikir suare kau sedap sangat per?
blh rilek one sudut corner okay.

bye.

when three becomes two. 11:19 AM

i thot it will end nicely and memorable.
nanie and self went to school early morning to bid fer de last to them.
they planned to have breakfast.
ya..

after izhar saw us,everyone turned.
and i seriously never know what happened lah.
left us wifout saying nithing?

we went down fer you people..
and dere you are.
i seriously donnoe what happened to her uh.

we were nt like ds before.
by right,i shud sae this..
if you ever reading my blog..
this is what i wanna tell you..

i never took nanie away.
she is nt being cold towards you jz becoz of me.
and i never ever ask her to be cold towards you.
and i juz cudnt accept that u sae..
"y she lyk so cold twds me evasince she hv wani in her life?"
what are you trying to sae?
me snatching nanie from you?
to be reminded,
i never did snatch nanie from you.
y are you being like ds?

you shud be asking nanie what happened when i never bid you goodbye or de rest.
i cried.
yes!
i cried.
i cried becoz of ds.
de friendship turns out to be ds..
but do you know it?
i never wonder if you ever know about it..

you came to me asking fer advises..
de next day you changed to be this.
what do you take me fer?
is dis what you call friends?
is ds type of friends in ur dictionary?

you know what?
i was about to msg you asking whether you have any grudges wif me?
and i was hold back because izhar and nanie said dont.
don let de matter become bad to worst.
but i juz cant face you.

i jz cant face you when you not knowing dat i knew what really happened.
you said we'll be in contact.
but seriously.
i never know to be in contact wif you.

think of all or everything way back when dere were three..
and now it becomes two.

itz up to you.
and you told me before dat itz ur life.
so ya..
all de best in your life.
thanks fer de friendship dat we had during school times and hours.
thanks fer everything.
take care and bye.
i can only bid goodbye here and never knew how to bid goodbye to you.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

a graduate. 7:13 PM

ya.
declare self a graduate from higher nitec.

seriously.
time flies fast.
i remembered de first time entering in higher nitec.
ice breakers.
knowing one another.
till today.
itz an ending line fer me.
and de rest tomorrow.

PR?
damn.
itz was @#@$#%$^
i REMINDED self to study one of dese point cz i had de feeling dat it will come out.
and TAA-DAA!!
i fergot about it.
and it came out in de question.
stoppppidious me.
i hope dat de paper goes well marked.
* pray hard *

and everyone were out by 4+..
and it gave me de urged of finishing it fast and out.
and dere we left.
i mean de five of us left.
sharon was in front me of coz.
still we can play a full behind de teachers back.

and...
done!
paper was done.
after cracking brains..
saw nanie outside class waiting fer me and sharon.
de rest taking something from P.E room.
and taa-daa..
he came.

ya la..
de same old guy.
"wanie... wanie..."
shit!
y u calling me?
and stoopidious telling me cannot bully each other no more...

and BOOM!!
i cried.
yes..yes..yes..
a crybaby..
i missed everyone stoooopidly la kan..
on de way following nanie to de locker..
walking silently behind nanie..
and infront of izhar..
memories do brought back.
seriously.
cried within.

den..
met maine..
sharon..
meng choon..
chin yong..
we're like hugging each other la..
and dere..
BOOM!!
i cried again.
cry baby i am okay..

gonna continue crying tomorrow fer de last.
cz nanie.. chin yong.. and my self..
will be coming down to meet dem fer de last in school.

i miss all of you okay!
:)

Thursday, March 6, 2008

final exam. 11:17 PM

final year exam!
luckily only Public Relations.
if not,i'll cry fer sure.
seriously.

study.
all de best people.
especially lovely mates of everyone from IST.

* studying *

de last class bonding.. 5:23 PM

http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/45/de_last_class_bonding.

here's de pic taken early morning upon reaching school.
take a peek alright.
itz de last class "bonding"..
hahha!!
see ya peepz soon huh....

miss and love you people alotz.
take care everyone.
:)

Sunday, March 2, 2008

im hooked wif Korean drama - My girl.. 9:47 PM