Wednesday, February 20, 2008
two weeks arent suppose to be counted.
7:46 PM
it really makes me sick.
de first day of school starts everything.
it hurts me.
seriously.
if only i never knew dem.
if only we never knew each other.
things wont be de same.
it kills me actually.
it aches me everytime seeing dem.
de laughters.
de smiles.
de talkings.
and now.
i do feel de time is here to separate us to go different place.
different place.
different journey of life.
no more talkings.
no more having funs.
no more crapping.
no more copy-ing each others work.
no more project discussions.
no more.
no more.
and no more of dat.
itz not temporary.
itz permanent.
itz forever.
two weeks are not long..
itz a short period of time.
fourteen more days and datz it.
datz de end of it.
no more coming school early morning.
no more morning calls reminding one another where to meet or where we are.
no more sms-ing one another asking about this and dat.
no more.
no more.
and no more.
itz not temporary.
itz permanent.
itz forever.
we've known only 1 years plus2..
not fit enuf to fit in fer 2 years course which dey promised.
and dere we are separating ways after knowing one another well.
moreover..
i knew some of dem fer almost 3 years..
this is what i call school life.
it aches.
it irritates.
itz everything.
never knew de time is here to separate us.
we never realise it when it comes till today dat we knew itz soon enuf.
i'll miss everything.
de fifteen years of education.
a,b,c..
1,2,3..
do,re,mi..
since kindergarten..
till my higher nitec.
if only poly allows fer me to enter dem..
and i'll keep on studying..
but i do miss de cliques!
i miss studying.
seriously.
i miss sitting in de class.
seriously.
i miss de school people.
seriously.
never did i ever have this feeling after schooling fer four years in secondary life.
as i seriously never gt de feelings of being too close wif the people.
but after since i enter ITE which people or some of de secondary mates saying ITE,itz de end..
fer me itz not.
dere i learnt many new things.
knowing different kind of people.
wif deir own character..
even thou it starts wif Nitec,i aint dat too close either.
but only to some.
and now..
being wif de clans,
knowing dem in and outz..
i just cant stop schooling..
and still wants to continue de journey of higher nitec life.
but it has to go..
now and forever.
surely do miss de funs.
surely miss de craps.
surely miss everything.
thanks to dem..
making my "lonely" journey to a miracle.
making us who was once skinny to "fats" after being toooooo happy being around.
thanks.
no one could explain how we knew each other..
thanks to nanie = chemong.
thanks to lin = tompok.
thanks to jai.
thanks to sharon = ah ton.
thanks to maine = ah maine.
thanks to meng choon = hou zhi.
thanks to chin yong.
thanks to all mates.
okay2..
thanks to you muhd izhar bin abu bakar = papan/ice man.
alot okay.
oh..
how i miss all of you.
gathering soon people?
plan fer cuzins outing.
7:13 PM
hOney cuzins!!
irah and i are planning fer our own gathering wif cuzins..
actually including kak idah too wanna join de fun..
we thot of having it in march..
reply back alright!
:)
Sunday, February 17, 2008
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10:09 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
de drama game part 1.
6:05 PM
it begins with a nice story line..
which may lead to a sad ending..
de leading actor is a nice person with a kind and sincere heart.
and de leading actress may be a "nice" person with a "kind" and " sincere" heart and maybe being too egoistic.
deres no other actors or actress.
only two leading actor and actress are playing in dis drama game.
but itz no drama game fer de actor..
coz he played as an actor well whom ladies maybe are queing up to play in de scene..
de leading actress is reluctant to got de puurfect place in de drama game..
but she doesnt play it well..
her mind is playing wif her..
since de starting or beginning of de drama game..
cz she played as an actress in her past dramas before..
but things doesnt turns out well with de actress and those leading actors..
now..
audiences are seeing dem..
saying dat de actress and de actor are playing well still in de drama..
but de egoistic actress never even bother..
instead shes hurting de actor more in and out of scene..
wondering why still?
de answer remain well in de actress till today..
no one ever noes about it..
from my point of view..
de actress is just being so egoistic..
not thinking of de actor feelings outside scene..
thinking of her negative past with past dramas..
she is still playing with de drama game with de actor..
and de actor...
never knew anything what de actress is thinking till now..
de game is all about me.
12:23 PM
i never wanna be actually.
but i never noe what recently happened or lately happened.
my mind is saying dat i hate to be attached.
i never wanna be attached.
yes..
yes..
i never wanna be attached.
coz maybe i aint ready fer it..
and maybe coz i never have feelings fer anyone yet?
im not trying to play someone's heart here..
someone out dere is way too nice.
sacrificing alot..
but itz just dumb me who never noe how to be nice to him.
itz just me.
de game is all about me.
being soooo egoistic in love life.
yes.
i do have feelings but i never wanna play wif feelings.
but i never noe whats been going on lately.
maybe itz a rushed thing.
or maybe itz something something which i never noe what is dis something something.
oh damn...
i never noe what happened to me.
seriously.
have to self reflect as fast as i could.
to bring de me who have been living fer almost 20 years of age...
but i guess one self about me is..
im an egoistic person.
