Monday, December 31, 2007
resolution fer 2008.
3:59 PM
yes..
2008 is here sooon...
and i think i jz have to reflect something on maself..
maybe others never noe what happen to me in 2007..
happy and sweet memories are to be kept..
and bad memories are to be erased seriously from me to lead de new start life..
PLEASE dont and never look down on me..
im a smoker.
seriously.
but ive QUIT.
i guess?
shocked?
i noe..
so dont judge de book by itz cover..
i do have de negative side within me..
i do smoke when stress strikes..
so..
instead of me being stress doing crazzy stuffs..
smoking fer me i think i de way to cool self down..
so people..
sorry if u people never noe ds..
dat im a smoker..
who actually used to be a smoker..
yes..
im not a smoker fer now..
passive smoker is me..
:(
so..
resolution fer 2008..
stop being sooo stress up which can lead me to smoking..
hahhhaa!!
so people..
dont give me any stress okay?
more resolutions?
yes..
to do my 2007 resolutions which not yet fulfill?
hahhaha...
deres a lot actually..
very de many2 okay..
1st - stop being soooo stress up.
2nd - having de permanent job fer ....... hehehe...
3rd - my car license... woohoo!!
4th - private o'level.
5th - more holidays fer me wif family and de CLIQUES after end of year school.
6th - good health fer me and family and friends.. yes you!! de one reading my entry!! hehehe..
7th - to spend more time sitting at home rather den going out often.. hehehe...
8th -
9th -
10th -
.... - ....
.... - ....
more and more and more actually..
but i want dat camera SERIOUSLY..
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
de plans..
1:15 PM
happy 19th birthday Lin..
and welcome2 to the 19th group...
ure one of us olreadi seh...
at last..
de clubbing thingy thing..
is it confirm?
im kind of 50/50 here okay..
cousin!!
are you going after ur salsa thingy thing?
we never yet confirm fer de last yesterday seh..
ya...
due to de busyness yesterday...
one of my close relative passed away yesterday..
and dad was not around..
he went KL wif his working friends...
and me,mum and siblings went in de morning..
plans were cancel..
reached and only saw some relatives whereas de rest yet on the way...
seriously..
after everyone came...
it was seriously packed okay...
many people were dere...
de house was packed wif de makciks2 from deir family..
which actually to be easily said...
our relatives are de most...
even wen deres no more space in de house..
de makciks2 insist of coming in too...
* smack forehead *
but everything went smoothly..
we went to cemetary after asar...
and while waiting fer de grave to be done...
me..mum and siblings went to late grandfather's "new house"...
cleans everything...
read doa fer him...
and dere we went back wif relative..
and im sorry mister..
plan had to cancelled.
due to my tiredness..
and ur mrepek handphone..
which u received my msges about half an hour later..
dumb!
tired noe like dat..
so...
cousin!!
are u coming along too?
and izhar..
haiz...
reflect urself in de broken mirror first can?
heee...
:)
Sunday, December 23, 2007
de tiring day.
10:45 PM
today went to 4 different weddings...
2 in yishun..
and 2 in jurong..
went wif parents and lil'bro...
2nd bro?
lost couldnt find his way back home..
as usual..
guys will always be guys..
cant stand sitting at home quietly.
am i right guys??
ya...
i noe im right.
okay2..
went out early morning...
woke up early morning...
which tires me actually cz de previous day went to hospital..
a close relative is in serious state..
didnt recognise anyone anymore..
recalled a situation which flashback to me...
ya..
it was like few months back..
wen late grandfather was in dat situation.
but overall,
reached dere and read yaasin fer her..
hope shes okay..
insya allah.
amin.
ya...
back about de wedding thing...
saw relatives at de third wedding in jurong..
and we went to de last wedding together2..
de more de merrier..
de last wedding...
relatives wedding...
seriously.
alot of people dere...
cz de groom just arrived..
friends and relatives were around de bride and groom.
and so we went straight to de karaoke's corner which cuzins were in charge of actually.
ya...
few minutes passed...
pictures taking were taken over...
everything settled..
bride and groom went off to bedok to de groom's side..
and we're taking over...
karoke session...
makan session...
and ya..
my name was given doing de duet thing wif abg mokhtar..
dua insan was de song..
sing...
sang...
sung...
settled...
done...
sat...
blablabla here and dere wif cuzins and relatives and went back..
which was insisted by dad..
cz he was tooooooooo tired..
or maybe he was scared dat he kena sabotaged wif deary cuzins..
and dere we go...
went back...
raining heavily...
serious....
heavily.
reached home.
rest not well still..
and getting self ready to go ilah's place...
makan session...
fer kenduri...
and offff we go.......
i mean and off afai and maself go dere la..
de two crazzy people went to another crazzy ghurlfren place...
oh how i miss de people dere...
long time no see people....
eat much.
talk much.
drink much.
laugh much.
watching tv much.
seriously i miss everything much...
3 hours sitting dere can be siow ting tong..
even wen u saw ds crazzy ghurlfren...
laughters and smiles are always in de house...
ilah...
one day...
we sit down and talked much again okay...
how i miss every moments of us last time seh...
thanks fer everything ghurlfren..
i mean de fooooods...
hehe...
appreciate alot...
thanks...
and rest well okay...
tomorrow i guess u will have de fun outing at east coast wif dat guy....
hehehhe....
and one day...
i must get to noe him well...
like what ure doing now fer me okay...
:)
no impact.
10:33 PM
does it gives any impact on me?
no.
ya i mean..
i'll give it a straight NO.
cz i aint at any faults.
ya..
call me this..
and call me that..
whatever it is...
i'll sae it doesnt give me any impact..
good luck to me?
ya..
good luck to you back..
cz ive told u to be friends..
and u still have this mind set of trying on still..
even thou u said ure not.
please...
even thou u lived one year older den me..
yet i can use my brain of thinking it in a way which you doesnt..
cz u still never gives up..
which i really gives up..
ya...
y?
saw me wif him?
dats afai.
a friend in need is always a friend in deed.
we went to ilah's place cz gt kenduri..
we two friends went to ilah's place fer kenduri..
any probs?
huh?!
do you have any probs?!
whatever okay..
cz i don have regrets on anything still..
no regrets in my life..
ya..
sae whatever you want la...
msged me whatever u wanna sae..
cz im sure u will msged me wen u saw me wif afai..
and taa-daa...
u msged me good luck..
yet again..
whatever la..
cz i noe i jz wants de nice friendship but i nvr noe y i just cant la wen in contact wif you..
only de close ones noes...
troubles in brain will always happened..
and de close ones are de only victims fer me to let out my anger..
even my parents...
please...
dey are not in de faults...
Saturday, December 22, 2007
dedicated to de sick friend..hehe..
11:10 AM
oklah..
i pity u okay..
juz came back from melaka and dere you are..
sick.
kesian.
i think ure not suitable wif de surroundings dere and dats y..
wen you came back...
u have ds sickness attacking you..
or i think u miss me many2 la...
hahahah...
klar...
blood...
i mean..
muhd izhar bin abu bakar...
go and have ur medicine la okay..
no working till ure fine and okay..
i'll kill you if gt to noe ure working even thou ure sick..
u noe dat u just came back from ur holidays and dere you go..
working de next day wifout having much rest..
tell me again dat i never care fer you dummy...
u care fer me wen im sick in school..
now my turn okay..
even thou never see ur sick idiotic face...
hehheh...
so..
have good rest la blood..
taking care...
Friday, December 21, 2007
hari raya haji 2007.
1:32 PM
yeay yeay..
guess whos back?
back again..
hahahha...
lame.
ya...
dat crazzy black headed nut-head guy is back from melaka...
and how i miss dsturbing u la seh..
i mean miss dsturbing u..
not missing you okay...
so...
welcome back to singapore mr.muhd izhar bin abu bakar...
just don put ur calls into silent mode..
cz im gonna haunt ur calls...
whahahhahah!!!
ya...
yesterday was hari raya haji.
okay...
i cried de previous day hearing de takbir...
i cried deeply down..
seriously.
only he heard my cries..
thanks even thou ure working over time.
huhu...
ya..
i think i miss late grandparents alot..
dats y...
and ya..
i lost my late grandfather recently 2nd week of raya this year..
which really aches me alot..
haiz...
yesterday morning followed mom to de mosque..
to see de our family sheeps which supposed to be sacrifice..
met aunt and cuzin nadiah at de bus stop...
and met uncle and abg azrin at de mosque..
many people were dere..
helping around in de mosque...
while waiting fer our number..
saw my ex-kindergarten and primary skoolmate,atifah..
how i miss her damn many2...
and number were given...
we were in de waiting room waiting fer our number to be called out..
few minutes waited and dere we go...
seeing our family sheeps..
okay..
dat was my very first time seeing de sacrifisation in front of my face...
scared were inside me..
uncle was doing it on behalf of my late grandfather...
and abg azrin was doing it fer grandmother...
and me and cuzin nadiah were doing de video recording thingy thing..
and alhamdullilah..
everything went smoothly...
and ya...
while waiting too..
saw farhan and sharizad carrying de sheeps...
:)
went to grandmother's place after receiving our muttons..
passed her de mutton..
stayed dere with aunt,mom,cuzin nadiah...
tired were in me and cuzin..
u can explain from her tired face actually..
heheh..
:)
went back fer washed up after dat..
was about to have a short nap wen mom woke me up telling me to get self ready..
to grandmother's place of coz..
having our kenduri dere...
so upon reaching..
i salam everyone...
and off to cuzins room where de hanging out place usually at...
saw cuzin fifi sleeping sedap-ly...
and cuzin nadiah lying dere who is almost sleeping too...
and dere i am..
joing dem to sleep toooo...
hehehhe...
tired la sey...
slept about half an hour wen cuzin iqah came in and woke us up...
fer de kenduri...
everything was nice yesterday...
only dat we doesnt have much pics taken..
huhu..
:(
so ya...
take care everyone..
resting fer me is fer now..
revising fer exams are starting soooooon.
:)
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
he's just a friend.
11:53 AM
he's just a friend.
and ya..
he's just a friend.
and im not one of ur fan k..
heheheh..
and datz iskandar.
sorry la i was sick and tired.
:\
http://youtube.com/watch?v=t5yKprOneBY
http://youtube.com/watch?v=WFoX_TtEseQ
http://youtube.com/watch?v=10pyH8KXOO8
i.hate.dat.someone.alot.
11:29 AM
call me bitch.
call me slut.
call me whatever u want.
and i'll just open my ears listening to humilation from you and others?
just wondering wheres de stoopid brain of urs goes to?
ur fcuking ass isit?
guys..
guys..
guys..
will oways throw tantrums wen dey never get a thing..
ya..
like you..
fcuker!
ya..
i mean de one someone..
whom i simply hate dat someone..
hate me?
ur problem la.
i noe dat im right..
what i did advise or whatever fucking things i tell u doesnt really implies on u..
coz u doesnt have de brain to move on wif ur fcuking life..
u fcuker..
ya..
stay on like dat..
and i'll tell you..
ur life would be de fcuking life u ever had..
coz ure just a fcuking irritating person who doesnt want to move on wif ur fcuking life..
have i made maself a clear cut to u fcuker?
p/s...iskandar.. please den.. move on wif life..and please be a matured person la. if u think dat im implying dis blog to u... den i never noe wat to sae la.. cz i guess u NEVER EVER USE ur brain much..
please la!!!!!!!
get a life sia...
seeing u people just irritate my day...
and izhar..
call me wen ure back from ur holidays..
and ilah..
meet me again someday..
and faizal...
i have to think it again and again and again still...
until deres nothing to think again fer us..
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
de last day of our project event.
12:08 PM
ya..
yesterday was de last day of our project event.
and i miss de children dere seh..
we were de escoting volunteers escoting de crazzy mascots...
hehehhe....
sory people..
i never update de pics here anymore...
check out de multiply itself ya..
and how i miss de children seriously.
:)
supposely to meet iskandar today..
i mean my friend iskandar...
not de past iskandar some people out dere noes k..
ya..
im sssooooo terribly sorry.
cant meet u today.
kind of having a bad sickly day today..
ala...
u also just came back from ur 12hours work mah..
so just go and rest okay dokay...
see you around sometimes later...
and im meeting my ghurlfrens tomorrow..
weeeheee...
im loving it....
u girls just decide de place okay..
and i'll go wif de flow..
and simply said,
i cant wait okay....
Sunday, December 16, 2007
de days..
2:42 PM
seriously.
a very long time since i update de blog.
many things happened fer de past few days..
MANY MANY MANY things i would say..
oritez..
school holidays are here.
and i simply HATE it.
simply HATE it.
coz holidays are boring fer me.
i would rather go school den having dis holidays sitting at home.
rather have de fun in school wif de crazzy people den sitting at home being crazzy.
yes.
i noe.
i can turn crazzy and nuts sitting at home.
simply will go nuts.
ya..
at last one of de project is done.
woohoo!
and two more to go actually..
erghhh......
but actually fun la...
at least i have something to do and focus on rather den not doing anything at home..
and got to meet de crazzy people fer projects..
and seeing you people makes de day..
ya...
past few days..
many things happen..
fer a reason i guess?
hah!
okay..
new friends are loved.
but i do still remember de old friends of mine.
and i love you people.
but some people juz never appreciate friendship.
ya..
i rather keep it to maself who de person is.
cz i simply HATE dat person.
yes..
coz u never appreciate de one around.
and you never have de brain to think and move on wif life.
h!$%^%&^%&$$
i'll never pick ur call,or replying to ur msges,and can even never bother u la..
*fcuker*
den at de same time..
iskandar came..
i mean my own friend iskandar..
not dat iskandar you people thinks okay..
ergh..
im not de desperate girl who hunts fer guys okay...
please..
coz people may think dat i am..
but im not okay!!
ya...
isk..
i noe u donnoe dat ure popular among de fans out dere..
but i rather have de friendship..
and seriously..
i tell you..
de song of urs really make de day..
and i rather listen to ur voice den someone out dere voice..
if only his voice is nicer den ur voice.
his voice is way too...i never know how to explain.
hahah!
okay2..
seriously.
i miss de cliques fer 3 weeks during holiday..
what can u explain if de 3 months are here..
sad.
oritez..
update dat only..
i wanna enjoy seeing de people down dere under my blk..
ya..
a neighbour of mine who is a Mat Motor get hitched today.
and de friends of hys...
i mean de Mat2 Motors are here...
Vroooooommmm...
i loike...
but please people!!!!!!!
im not de girl who goes go-goo ga-gaa over Mat Motor k..
simply i just love to see only..
not droooling over k...
so...
ya...
~toodles~...
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
de busy me.
8:20 PM
im gonna be seriously busy dese few days.
project.
exam.
taa-daa..
busy me..
friday morning OA exam.
typing..
typing..
typing..
and have to finish up report fer Public Relation project and pass it to Nanie.
by tomorrow.
* scratch head *
have to make self some fooooods to eat..
to make self awake..
zzzzzz....
and got to go fer KKH on sunday morning fer Public Relation Event.
and i seriously cant wait fer de event okay..
muhd izhar...
i guess u gonna miss de fun dere..
so ya...
got to move now..
monday blues?
1:23 AM
okay2..
went out to town fer dinner wif afai on 3 december 2007..
fer his 23rd advance birthday..
window shopping..
and i never knew dat town area could be soooooo de pack even thou itz weekdays..
arent u people schooling or working de next day?
planned to meet de cliques actually after deir interviewing projects..
but..
thanks to you muhd izhar..
u called me once u reached tampines..
and im gonna hate you fer dat can?
i seriously hope you could sae "yes..you may..."
pweeeety pleaseeee....
heheeheee...[evil laugh]...
so...
ya...
datz about it i guess..
my day on monday dated 3 december 07.
de dae before i get de pain in de throat.
ergh!..
de killing throat.
1:13 AM
seriously.
de throat is killing me deep down.
ergh!
okay.
fine.
it hurts okay.
seriously.
and im gonna miss talking.
and i seriously hate typing.
wonder how it happens?
i'd advise you first okay.
don ever eat sweets late night before sleep.
and dat happened to me la of coz.
eating chupa chup late night before sleep,on de fone.
and after dat...
without drinking plain water..
i wash up maself...
and off to bed..
zzzzz...
and...
taa-daa...
de magic begins..
de pain in de throat la of coz..
even after drinking alot of plain water...
and 100plus...
heee....
it really hurts..
u cant even talk well.
or even laughing.
how i miss laughing okay.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
happy birthday dad.
12:28 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!
okay2..
yesterday went to wak enon's place.
were supposedly to visit lil nephew..
and guess people what happen?
taaa-daaa!!
tak jadik sunat.
aiyayayaya!!....
had out lunch dere..
and off we go back home fer a change to go makan wif paternal side.
and cuzins...
im sorry didnt get to meet you people..
looking ferward fer de 8th okay?
had our change..
and fer me manage to have a short nap due to de migraine fer not having my breakfast and late lunch.
ergh!!
you will noe one day how it feels..
changed!!
and off we went to admiralty to meet cuzins.
and off again we went Sakura International which is located at Clementi near to NUS.
it will be nice if you go dere wif ur date.
itz seriously romantic i guess.
place was like Seoul Garden.
so reached!!
saw cuzins with deir own partners.
yes..
dey wif deir partners..
so i rather sit wif my mom and dad and aunts..
huhu!!
okay2..
had our dinner.
which you can pick on ur own.
itz actually like a buffet.
so...
pick whatever or anything.
and we celebrated dad's birthday too dere..
not only him..
we celebrated dad's birthday...
uncle's birthday.
abg ayie's..
abg najib's..
adnan[cuzin boyfiee]
syahirah[cuzin ghurlfiee]..
so...
ya...
we celebrated those people who are having deir birthday in december.
so..
we spent our lost time together..
we went west coast after dat..
thot i could like spent time wif cuzins..
but ya...
dey were wif deir boyfriends...
so i rather not..
and just spent time wif siblings and cuzin hisyam.
sad?
NOT.
and yeah..
reached home at 0000hours.
refresh self.
and off to bed.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
tired day.
11:24 AM
okay...
went out to town after school fer our 4th project discussion.
and itz almost done.
simply love it.
deres only us..
me,nanie,val and izhar.
jai had to work.
lin having cuzin's wedding.
k2..
had lunch in school.
change to home clothes and off to orchard meeting izhar dere.
and taaa-daaa...
while on de way to bishan mrt..
guess who i saw?
damn!!
saw nizar...
dat ex-boyfriend of mine.
and wat are you trying to do sey nizar?
ure at fault and ure turning ur back behind after u saw me?
jerk i should say.
and itz perfectly ur fault not mine.
and lucky me i have my brother and his friends to go to ur place to take my stuffs back.
and ur mom was like isthigfar alot of time.
what kind of son are you?
i felt sorry fer ur mother to have a son like you okay.
u just donno how to appreciate things nicely.
u just donno how to take things nice and slowly.
u just donno how hurt it feels to be in dat situation.
as fer me im not being not appreciated.
thanks.
u never did spoil my day yesterday.
lucky.
my day was great.
full of smiles and laughters between me and friends.
and i simply love de cliques day after day.
after done wif project,
went to novena fer our dinner.
had long john dere wif POOR service.
i seriously have to highlight dat.
den head down to de donut factory few shops away.
and datz our 2nd hang out place i guess instead of our LIDO Mccafe.
had our crazzy moments dere.
wif val and nanie.
eat.talk.laugh.
moments of sharing problems.
a listening ear we are.
and datz it.
datz de tired day of me.
went back wif dat yellow balloon and 12 donuts fer family.
refresh maself..
and went to bed.
okay2..
listening to mp3 before bed is always my way.
before i receive a call from sanwan.
which i was way asleep actually.
zzzzz...
sorry dear friend.
never had de long talk.
migraine suddenly hit me.
and u had to listen to my sleepy voice.
sorry de many2.
