memories are to be kept to self alone..: October 2007

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

1:22 PM

wen school tends to get boring...

my friends tend to get interesting...

Sunday, October 28, 2007

10:57 AM

met my ghurlfrens yesterday after had lunch wif my dearest parents..

mom..

it have to move on..

i noe itz hard..

i'll cry too if i everyday see u crying..

i feel de lost too..

and thanks ghurlfrens fer making my day a wake up day..

met nanie and lin at yew tee..

accompanied nanie..

den we went ang mo kio hub..

accompanied her again her shopping..

next will be my turn fer shopping..

shopping juz makes me cool down maself..

and had dinner at mcdonalds wif dem..

mocha frappe as usual fer me..

i had fun on de fone wif u okay..

and yes..

de frustration of u being irritating when i cant get you really turns my day down..

but de long talk fer hours can make me cool maself bitz..

thanks fer being dere okay..

Thursday, October 25, 2007

9:34 PM

i was expecting from you..
but to no avail..
instead of you itz him..
he have been dere fer me since my late grandfather lies in de hospital..
but not you..
i do appreciate what he had done fer me..
and i appreciate it if you never ever comes back again..
as ive let you go but you came back..
and i was de one who ignore you..
and i wish u never return back again please..

i need free time fer maself..
im feeling down again..
memories and de feeling of being with grandfather is still dere..
and i miss him many2..
rest in peace.
*al-fatehah*
amin.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

10:33 PM

rest in peace.

may allah fergive de sins of u.

abg yin and i mae not be de one who didnt see u wif de last breath.

but im sure u went peacefully.

i'll remember de days and de times dat ive got to spent time wif you.

taking care of you.

and im happy fer it.

u will always be remembered.

and we will love u and miss u alotz and ferever.

and i will insyallah follow my commands as an Islam to do our rights which dey are de last werds you wants it to be done from your children,grandchildren and great-grandchildrem.

to my friends and especially my classmates IST and my subject teachers..

on behalf of my family and relatives..

thanks alots..

prayers could be made fer him to leave peacefully.

thanks again everyone.

Monday, October 22, 2007

2:46 AM

!!THE WORST EVER GASTRIC HISTORY!!
de gastric is really killing me inside and outside fer 3 days olreadi..
and thanks ghurlfren fer ur concern..
and ur welcome la scandal-blood-dummy-idiotic muhd izhar..
i'll show u de medicine which i have to take okay fer de past few days till now..
deng2..
and i'll have to vomit at ur face till u will keep ur mouth shut okay..

2:33 AM

itz such a stooopid thing to leave early fer ur boyfriend's burfdae..
education is more important..
itz as if u can stay long wif ur boyfriend..
as if..
ure juz putting high hopes on urself fer him..
and i hate dat type of person..
fer leaving a day of education juz fer de boyfriend..
itz as if u don have other time such as after school or some other days..
don come back to me complaining this and dat..
im not being fcuking jealous here okay..
im fine staying wif my single life..
as i gt to spend my time wif my parents..
and yes..
my parents..
siblings?
lost hope..
hacking dem care no more..
not in my hands..
been by deir side fer 17 and 11 years and doesnt know how to appreciate..
get on wif ur people's life..
and don come back crying fer help..
don bother me no more..
im jz sick and tired of keeping quiet..
and i'll keep maself quiet fer long until u people sae sorry from ur own mouths..
hari raya also never bother to ask fergiveness from ur eldest sister and why should i bother..
and ya..
i never did mention de name of de person..
dere's a malay saying "siape makan cili,terase pedas"..
if ure thinking dat itz u dat im talking about,den itz good la..at least u noe..
and if de person doesnt noe dat im talking about dat person..dont bother,go and find it out urself..

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

10:33 PM

it makes my day a fcuking damn pissed off day...
argh!!
i saw him again la sey..
out of many2 people..
and why..
saw him last week..
saw him again today in de train after school..
if only i followed chin yong and meng choon to de first cabin..
but im lazy to go down de stairs la..

and yes!!
i saw dat mohd sharill bin mohd sopi..
ergh!!
i was sitting in front of my uncle's family in de train..
ya..
saw dem after dey fetched their keys at de HDB in Novena..
he was sitting next to my lil cuzin!!
and dat was a lucky move coz luckily i never sit beside my cuzin..

felt something strange gonna happened while on de way back home from school..
didnt notice him boarding de train at yio chu kang..
until wen i saw ds cool hot guy walking and sitting next to me..
wen i looked up was him in front of me..
dummy!!
ergh!!
i was about to walk away wen i remembered dat my uncle's family was in front me..
what will dey be thinking rite..
so...
i have to sit dere..
and luckily!!
im gonna sae this la okay...
A BIG THANK YOU TO MUHD IZHAR!!
i call him straight after i saw dat guy..
sayang you many2 la blood..
u save my life...
whahhahaha!!!

got a call from grandmother..
grandfather was sent to de hospital again..
haiz...
how am i going to concentrate ehk?
somemore...
im feel sorry fer my lil'cuzin as she's taking her o'level next week..
pity you very2 much..
but juz concentrate on ur exams first okay..

2nd day of raya.. 12:49 PM

dese are de pics on de 2nd day of raya!!
enjoyz ya..

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

first day of raye. 11:55 PM

11:45 PM

chak!!
ta-da..
im back..
boring raye..
haiya..
no mood la dey..
tomorrow skooling..
more fcuking damn boring..
wen can dis school ends?
mr.timer..make it fast..
i cant stand it olreadi..
de boredom strikes through again..
dat guy gonna finish school in 7 more weeks..
and im finishing school in 6 more months?
he's going ns in 3rd Battalion Guard in 6 more months..
and thanks ehk..
ure leaving before my burfdae..
dummy you!!
somemore mdm rajesh class..
2 hours in a day again??
haiya..
hopefully can manage wifout de "devils" asking me to cabotz again..
piak!!

till den..
juz enjoy de pics of my raye okay at de other entry..
till den again..
toodles..

ps.i miss mr.man.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

6:24 PM

boring la dey..
frenster cant log in..
dammit!

now resting after whole day of cleaning up de house..
putting up de curtains in de living room..
in my room..
tired.
but okay..
never got de mod of celebrating Raya actually fer ds year..
as everything is in de last minute..
and i hate last minute..
duh!

can someone tells me y dat frenster cannot log in sey..
boring noe..
de music on de radio makes me sleepy...
zzzzzz...
im gonna doze off okay if de songs keeps on playing like dat...
oldies songs on Warna 94.2fm...
zzzzzz.....

next week skool reopens..
boring..
saw de draft schedule in de student portal..
gosh!!
can drives me nuts and crazzzy okay..
skool starts late..
and finishes late..
skool starts early but also finishes late..
boring..
and mdm rajesh..
im looking ferwerd fer ur subjects okay...[as if]...
toodles....~

3:31 AM

to scandal boyfriend..
im letting you go..
de minor reason is you..
de major reason is me..
i want to be maself again..
i noe itz only a short while in few days..
im sorry..
but i have to let you go..
deres a saying which says..
"GOOD GIRL GONE BAD"..
and yes..
im once a good girl who have turn bad recently..
itz bad but not yet come to worst..
and it will not turn to de worst fer ur info..
and bye2...
slamatz hari raye aidilfitri maaf zahir dan batin..
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to everyone...
im glad dat i can make it out to go makan2 and chilling and catching up wif one another..
but im juz feeling down wen my ex ite mates cant get to meet each other again..
everyone seems busy even thou plans have been made..
sad mode.
__________________________________________________________________________________

and to everyone again...
slamatz hari raya okay..
juz wanna put my 10 little fingers asking fer fergiveness if i did many mistakes to whomever okay..

and yes...
hahaha...
to you also okay..
muhd izhar bin abu bakar..
i noe i did many mistakes..
giving you many2 problems..
irritates you in many2 stooopid ways..
sorry la brother..
but im doing it again okay after skool reopens coz i juz cant resist irritates you everyday in many2 ways..
happy mode.
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.. 2:25 AM

huhu..

mummy noisy.

daddy angry.

and me?

haiz...

wen can i sit at home quietly?

hari raya is coming and me,maself and i went out again and again..

but i still did my house chores okay..

not dat i never..

i did it before i went out what...

today went to bugis and far east wif redzwan..

oklah..

good brother fer shopping..

told you before..

once i start going around shopping,i cant stop and u'll never find me sitting down..

unless im tired wif maself,den u can rest...

whhahaha....

hehehehh...

evil huh...

only those who went shopping wif me before noes me..

rite amalina?

okay2..

went window shopping from afternoon till night...

while shopping in town area..

saw dat ex boyfriend of mine..

haiya..

ask wan whether he saw me..

and yes!!

while crossing de traffic..

he was from de other side wif ds one idiotic lady whom i hate de most..

whereas me and wan were from de other side of de traffic..

and while crossing...

dammit!!

he saw me and turned 360 degree..

whereas dat idiotic lady half turn only..

good la coz i also dont want to see you dumbz!

wan!!

thanks to you sey..

luckily i was wif you..

and wan was de one who told me deir reaction..

wondering what i did??

haha.

never bother la..

saw dem but i juz walked away and never looked back or smile...

haha!

if only you understand de msg dat i replied to ur frenster dummy!!

and i'll never turn back to you okay..

have to meet shikha tomorrow a while fer my stuffs..

in geylang some more..

haiya...

but only fer a short while la..

coz dad will be at home..

dad..

im taking my stuffs and straight away going back okay..

i have no mood to walk dere again...

and also wan is accompanying me before his Home United soccer training..

and have to be at dere by 5.45pm..

datz y im going back early..

and scandal boyfriend..

im sorry fer not meeting you juz now..

i have a reason fer not meeting you okay..

de simple reason is dat im going out wif wan..

but yes..

i have de main reason between you and me..

and im sorry okay..

i'll meet you after this week i guess if ure not busy wif werk and skool again..

and me..

if im not tooo busy wif skool and i'll try spend few minutes of my time wif you..

and i hope u understand if i start wif my busy stuffs and not spending time wif you..

as i have to be maself..

standing on my own grounds..

achieving my goals of education..

concentrating only on one thing in ma life which is my education..

not concentrating much of other things such as you..

i have to be maself again..

achieving my dreams and goals fer de last..

and i hope u understand me..

i jz dont want any stressfull times and moments to happen to me again..

i simply hate it..

im sorry okay..

and i have to let go...

toodles..

wondering who dat boyfriend is?

ta-daaa....

no need fer me to waste my time telling cz de relationship only last fer few days...

hahahhahaha..

i noe im bad..

cz im de one letting it go.....

whahhahahahh...

"GOOD GIRLS GONE BAD".

- wan wif idiotic face b4 break fast -

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

... 2:23 AM

ur mummy's pineapple tarts are damn yummy..

de first layer of de tupperware ur mummy gave were done..

eaten mostly by....

me la of coz!!!

hehe...

credits to ur mummy okay...

met him in de afternoon in ang mo kio..

confirmation time:4.00pm.

i reached 4.10pm.

he reached 4.40pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i hate u okay.

tired noe waiting and sitting down dere in de cold station..

den we juz hang around at 323[i guess]..

waited impatiently fer another friend of his who came around 6.00pm...

den he asked de friend whether i noe ds fren of mine..

and dey were talking about dat person...

have to sit down dere and juz listened to deir conversations..

izhar...

u noe dat we noe de person and i donno what to do seh..

and he said de both of us are best friends ferever...

hope ds never affect de friendship between me and him lor..

and we went back around 6.30pm..

to you..

hope dat matter doesnt affect de friendship..

and i think im sense-ing something fishy2 going on olreadi..

being not-appreciated.

dumbz.

after dat..

at night..

went to northpoint..

accompanied mum and brother to buy fer another long sleeve of his..

haiya..

trouble-de-some..

ya rite..

he's growing..

dats y buying ds kind of tops..

haiya..

itz his own choice also..

before heading fer home..

went to grandparent's place to visit sickly grand-dad...

pray fer ur wellness and good health okay..